The first step that you take to break out from the norm, it's never easy.
To break out from the norm, to put a stop to whatever that you have been doing or to click that "Delete" button to cut the connection that you could have between you and it, or him, or her, it takes one giga dose of courage to do so. And sometimes, you could end up not being able to proceed to the second step, which is, moving on.
I have been there, done that. If any of you have followed my entries from these past few years, I have been mentioning about moving on, forgetting about something/someone, bla bla bla, and how ashamed I am to read all those entries because right now, sadly, I am not even an inch away from the same old spot that I have been in for the past few years.
Cakap gebang, they say?
I guess back then, when I said that I wanted to move on or things like that, I guess I was really determined. At that particular moment. As I was writing those entries. Yes, the drive and the determination to step forward were there. But still, I failed to make the second step ; moving on, successful. I was pampering and feeling sorry for myself too much, and yet I have permitted myself to drown myself into those fragment of memories.
And a thought clicked in my mind as I was listening to Separated by Usher. I shouldn't feel sad, or regret, on the whole incident that have occurred last two years. I shouldn't blame myself for being ignorant at that time, because if I wouldn't been that, imagine what position I will be in now?
I have realized that whatever I'm doing now, I'm doing it in the favor for Allah SWT. O' Allah, the Greatest, the Most Merciful, Allah has mapped our path in the most amazing way that we couldn't imagine. I'm just a normal human being who are bound to make mistakes every now and then, and Allah has made it easier for me to "break out from the norm".
And now, I will not make promises like before. Promises to forget the past and to move on. Let the past be one of my guidances, and let Allah SWT help me to go through everything. Have faith in Him, insha-Allah you will never be disappointed.
To break out from the norm, to put a stop to whatever that you have been doing or to click that "Delete" button to cut the connection that you could have between you and it, or him, or her, it takes one giga dose of courage to do so. And sometimes, you could end up not being able to proceed to the second step, which is, moving on.
I have been there, done that. If any of you have followed my entries from these past few years, I have been mentioning about moving on, forgetting about something/someone, bla bla bla, and how ashamed I am to read all those entries because right now, sadly, I am not even an inch away from the same old spot that I have been in for the past few years.
Cakap gebang, they say?
I guess back then, when I said that I wanted to move on or things like that, I guess I was really determined. At that particular moment. As I was writing those entries. Yes, the drive and the determination to step forward were there. But still, I failed to make the second step ; moving on, successful. I was pampering and feeling sorry for myself too much, and yet I have permitted myself to drown myself into those fragment of memories.
And a thought clicked in my mind as I was listening to Separated by Usher. I shouldn't feel sad, or regret, on the whole incident that have occurred last two years. I shouldn't blame myself for being ignorant at that time, because if I wouldn't been that, imagine what position I will be in now?
I have realized that whatever I'm doing now, I'm doing it in the favor for Allah SWT. O' Allah, the Greatest, the Most Merciful, Allah has mapped our path in the most amazing way that we couldn't imagine. I'm just a normal human being who are bound to make mistakes every now and then, and Allah has made it easier for me to "break out from the norm".
And now, I will not make promises like before. Promises to forget the past and to move on. Let the past be one of my guidances, and let Allah SWT help me to go through everything. Have faith in Him, insha-Allah you will never be disappointed.
"Hai orang-orang mukmin, jika kamu menolong (agama) Allah, niscaya Dia akan menolongmu dan meneguhkan kedudukanmu."
[Muhammad, 47:7]
-From Zahidah Azman's blog.
Masih jauh lagi. Terlampau jauh. It's okay, baby steps will do, insha-Allah <3
