I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating

Paramore, please make a visit to Malaysia please! I have been dying to watch you perfom live ohh! Mesti mcm seronok gila en, nyanyi ramai-ramai ahh best best best! *screams*

Okey habis cakap pasal Paramore. Kita cakap pasal twilight plak teeheeheehihihihihihihihiiihi. Dah sape suruh MTV air the video clip of decode hah hah, kan aku dah mula berangan pasal rob pattison HAHA.

Mesti macam seronok kan if we have our own vampire? Macam sumpah sexy. Then cuba bayangkan if our own vampire tu boleh main gitar sambil nyanyi lagu true - ryan cabrera. tapi main guitar tu option la. kalau tak boleh main pun tak kisah. our own vampire singing true by ryan cabrera. HOIH SEXY WEH.

angkasa penuh dengan berlian

ku capai sebelah tangan
sebalik awan ada cahaya
bercahaya selamanya
daku tertawa seorang diri
darah yang mengalir terhenti
fikiran ku melayang-layang
tiada siapa yang perasan.

*tsk tsk

blablabla.

I want to cry but I can't.

I'm a friggin mess.

when it rains

Will you always find an escape?
Just running away,
From all the one who loves you,
From everything.
You made yourself a bed
At the bottom of the blackest hole.
And you'll say that you don't want to see the sun anymore.

dicuri dari miss syafika. ana wahesytuni awi awi awi :(

What's your favorite color gummy bear?
- i don't eat gummy bears

What is the sexiest part of the opposite sex's body?
- lol. this is oneee hard question. is hair considered one? haha

Have you ever made up/sang a song for someone you cared about?
- i sucks at writing beautiful words, so sue me

Ever had a song sang about/for you?
- :( diam. tak pernah. i always tell my friends that it would be nice if someone sang for me a song with the title goes "Qurratu" hahaha and neah i don't think dat would happen.

Is there a baby in the room with you right now?
- neah

Do you know how to dance?
- certainly....no? ahaha.

Where do you sing the most, in the car, the shower or other?
- other.

What is your favorite thing that is green?
- neah nehi takde.

What did your last text message say?
- "oi...kau dah top up lom? hoho" - dari nauratul nadiah yang cantik

What do you smell like?
- i smell like human.

What's in your pocket?
- nehi takde apa2.

Anything in your mouth?
- nothing. but i can taste the big apple donut that i ate just now. :)

Ever hurt yourself playing Wii?
- what's Wii?

Do you have freckles?
- i have freckles on my left hand. only. weird.

How many languages can you say "Hello" in?
- is alien language counted as a language? geheheh

What's the last movie you saw in the theater?
- transformers.

Ever jumped/fallen/been pushed in a pool with your clothes on?
- nope

Are you wearing any clothes that you wore yesterday?
- nope. melekit kot

Name a song that you know all the words to
- ahh. emmm. some of yuna's songs. and mati hidup kembali by butterfingers bebeh.

Are you in love with someone right now?
- love is a big word for someone like me to use. to be honest, i don't know how to define love. no scratch that. no unscratch that. haha. i don't know how am i going to define love when i'm liking someone. okeh i'm babbling madness.

What's the last thing you watched on TV?
- behind the scenes of terminator salvation. tak tengok lagi pun terminator... :(

What's the last video game you played?
- sims..i think

Do you have an uncle named Joe?
- ahaha no.

Do you wear glasses?
- only when I'm studying and in talks. heh tak nampak.

What can you hear right now?
- behind the scenes terminator salvation DAH DIAM AKU TAK NAK DENGAR SEBAB TAK TENGOK LAGI PUN TERMINATOR TSK TSK.

Did you feel better or worse or the same yesterday?
- yesterday is saturday. today is sunday. i felt better SIKIT je. .

How long have you had MySpace?
- erh for around 4 years kot ntah tak ingat.

What was your favorite childhood show?
- power rangers and barney :) and if you want me to watch both of these shows now, i layan je :)

Are you close to your siblings?
- yes. dan ingin saya nyatakan di sini yang saya merindui adik saya yang kini berada di selandar jasin. tsk tsk suka sangat lupakan kakak kau kat sini kalau telefon pun mesti nak cakap dengan ibu je T__T

What was your first job?
- parkson's promoter bebeh

Do you bite your nails?
- rarely.

Do you sleep well at night?
- yes. tido mati kdg2. ye kita sama species okeh cik ahmad helmi :P ahaha

laa dah habis? ahahah.

so I'm in a lousy mood.

Seriously I don't wanna think about it. (MACAM LIRIK LAGU JUSTIN KANNNN??????? WAH WAH HEBATNYAAAAA AKU QUOTE JUSTIN DALAM KEHIDUPAN SEHARIAN SEHHHHHH)

After got back from KL, I went into a deep sleep. Seriously because I'm tired and I think sleeping is one way to escape from thinking about what had been bothering me. Okay scratch that. Not had been bothering. HAS BEEN BOTHERING ME UNTIL NOW.

So I woke up like around 1 am I guess, (I told you I tido mati at times T__T) and when I woke up I can hear the TV's on.

I was like, "Apa?? Adik2 ku masih bangun lagi?? Bukankah mereka selalu tidur awal??" Haha dramatic la sangat. Then I was asking my youngest bro, Danial, (tetiba hari ni dia macam act cute and stuff and nak baik dengan aku, selalunya ada je point dia nak gaduh dengan aku ahhahaha immature nyaaa.) and he told me my cousins were here and talking to my parents and stuff.

Soooo after taking bath and all and after my cousins have gone back, I went online. Hihihihihihihihihihihiihiiihihi so at least I felt better la hihihihihi *gelak gedik gile serious macam nak muntah hijau haha. But seriously, I felt better la I guess after YM-ed. Thank you to you know who you are teehee :)

Oke dah giggling like a gedik girl moment is over. T__T I read peeka's blog just now. and I saw in one of her posts,

"i wanna talk to my dearie qurratu but i dunno whether she wants to talk to me or not"

:( that got me go awwwwww. And I felt guilty afterwards. Have I been too busy sampai kembar sendiri pun diabaikan? :(

It's not that. I guess I am kinda protective over her. Okay I know I sound eew and weird. But she's my kembar la. And I know how she is. And I guess it's normal for close friends to be worried of each other, kan? Yerp. So when I get worried, I will nag. Like orang tua. Tua sebelum umur. Like what syahmi always said about me. Walaupun aku lagi muda dari dia. hoho.

Okeh menyimpang dah dari topik.

So I nag a lot when I'm worried. And I'm afraid that I will nag at peeka sampai dia bosan. ahaha. Tapi babeeee, if you want to talk to me, you can always talk to me! anytime, anywhere, i'm all ears for yah, insya-Allah!

*kepada peeka, sila ambil hp anda dan type siapakah gerangan cik nerdylittlecrush dan send ke Qurra. SEKARANG. A.S.A.P. eh btw, afry nak campak mana bebeh? ahahaha.

although I sounded happy in this post,

I NEED AN ESCAPE LAAA. :(

it's time to do what we used to do.

gimme back all my DVDs bebeh.
Ada Apa Dengan Cinta, i miss watching you. Eventhough I can say that I almost memorized all the dialogues. T__T

Gossip Girl, i'm going to watch you again. Thanks to peekaboo, I saw ed westwick's picture on her profile and terus jadi bersemangat to watch GG again.

All the cicaks in the world, go away, I hate you. Your presence disgust and irritate me.

Fin.

this is just an opinion of mine. no offense intended.

I was watching the news just now, (which is something that I haven't done for quite a period of time though i) and there was something about a video on some female high school students bullying another student.

First of all, female high school students??? Like seriously??? And this is the kind of bully yang sampai tendang sepak tampar lempang pijak, etc etc etc. Okeh even when I'm typing I could feel the rage burning inside me yah know. Like seriously mcm sangat sangat immature weh. T__T

Secondly, (Rasa macam tengah jawab essay SPM. T_T), one of the students in the video were wearing tudung. And this is sooo tak masuk akal sebab like hello, you're wearing tudung, and you're kicking, slapping someone? needless to say while you're still in your school uniform? Tau tak apa yang kau buat neh potray org2 yang bertudung indirectly?

Thirdly, if you're that mad at someone, if you have some issues with him or her, try to find ways or try to solve it other than fighting. Don't create problems wehhh. Tgk tak pasal2 dah tersebar vid tuh. Tak ke haru? Just imagine you're in her shoes weh. Apa kau rasa kalau kau yang kena tendang sepak lempang tu? Dan cuba kau bayangkan kalau adik kau or relatives kau kena mcm tu. Tak sedih ke weh? Kau tak rasa mcm nak mengamuk tengok your loved ones being hurt in such way?

It won't make you some cool kid if you pick a fight with someone. Hurting someone, I think it's not even being close to cool. I think it's a pure immature act that one put up and also a shortcut to satisfy yourself.

If I sounded emotional in this post, I have to admit that I have some issues with this issue. I had an experience of my younger brother been beaten up while he's in Form 1. When I heard the news, I was crying and boy I was super mad back then. I feel like meeting up with those "so-called-friends" of my brother and give them a piece of mind. Nasib baik adik aku takdelah kena teruk sangat, thank God. But still, it ain't cool weh.

Again, if this post is offending anyone, or if anyone dislikes this post, I am truly sorry. I never meant to hurt or offend anyone through this post. Seriously. I am just voicing out my opinion and just wanna show that I am clearly unhappy with this issue.

Please people, fighting or bullying is not a way to solve problems.

Again, no offense intended, okay? No hard feelings or whatsoever.

tidur atas lantai pun best jugak.

i was browsing through akma's pictures that were taken during her dinamika dinner, and i was laughing because i saw the familiar selendang and the familiar handbag that she used that night.

iye. macam sangat-sangat common dan satu perkara yang harus when it comes to dinamika dinner, HARUS PINJAM BARANG FAD. gehehe. teringat i did borrow her handbag gehehehe dah tak nak ingat dinner dinamika horror gile. T__T

Fad memang sangat famous everytime datang season dinamika dinner ni. Dialah tukang make-up, dialah tukang meminjamkan barang, termasuklah handbag, baju semua tu, ahah, dialah tukang pakaikan selendang, dialah tukang sorak...haha.

lepas tu kalau cakap pasal Fad, mesti teringat kat Peeka. Lepas tu nanti ingat kat Yam. Sebab diorang bertiga ni dulu inseparable. Boleh kira macam 3 stooges jugaklah eh eh tak boleh Peeka dah ada her own 3 stooges dah. Okeh tak boleh 3 stooges. dorang kira macam the 3 musketeers la.

Dan dulu Peeka selalu buat sleepover kat bilik aku. haha. konon-konon nak belajar sama. Bawaklah comforter segala bagai, tapi last-last tidur gak. T___T lagi-lagi kalau ada laptop. hadoi LAPTOP MEMANG MENARIK PERHATIAN KITA LEBIH DARIPADA BUKU. ADAKAH BENDA INI AKAN BERLAKU KELAK DI EGYPT?????

dan peeka memang selalu tidur atas lantai. Dah ajak dia tidur atas katil pun tak nak. adoi.

kekadang tidur sekali dengan dia atas lantai. kesianlah. ni baru menepati maksud "be with your friends through thick and thin, come hell or high water" kan kan kan.

dan kekadang switch, peeka tidur atas katil, aku tidur atas lantai. geheheh. best memang best, sejuk tapi BELAKANG GUA SAKIT SAPE NAK URUT?

lepas tu teringat time PSPM, my roomates and I selalu buat discussion kat tengah-tengah bilik, dan usually this discussion between us took place during night la. sebab pagi tu semestinya As bertapa kat surau ataupun bilik bacaan, dan usually left me and Fifah in the room.

Paling best buat discussion pasal bio, nanti lukis-lukis semua tu sambil guna teori sendiri dan ikut pemahaman masing-masing untuk explain.

Teringat time Yam explain kan pasal photosynthesis. ='( Yam rindu yaaammmm. lepas tu nanti time jawab periksa mulalah bercakap sorang-sorang sambil mata naik ke atas siling sebab nak ingatkan balik apa yang Yam ajar.

Dan masa PSPM 2 haritu, the night before our last paper, Chemistry, after jadi posmen tak bertauliah hantar sijil-sijil berhenti kat budak-budak tutorial yang duduk sampai blok B5 tu, (it's a wonder why I didn't slim down. KENAPA KENAPA???? ='( ), balik-balik bentang tilam kat bawah, amik rak masing-masing jadi meja, maka bermulalah discussion Chemistry.

Masa tu tak fikir lain dah, memang dah excited nak habiskan paper dan NAK BALIK HOIH BEST GILE. Dan lagi best sebab PAPER MATHS DAH HABIS WEHHHHH PAPER MATHS DAH HABIS!! =) paper Maths memang killer paper. Grade pun killer jugak, daripada PSPM 1, UPS 2 dengan PSPM 2 grade tak pernah nak berubah. T___T takper takpe bersyukur.

lepas tu malam tu nak tidur, BOLEH FAHAM TAK 3 ORANG SATU TILAM??? tapi takpe takpe, sebab badan masing-masing kecik cinonet, memang muat gehehehe. 0=) statik plak tu. bangun-bangun tengok Fifah tengah belajar. Dia ni memang jenis yang rajin belajar. As pun. Aku sorang je yang sesat suka melagha T__T

time dalam dewan periksa plak, eh eh aku perasan aku amik periksa dalam dewan, padahal amik kat dalam makmal dahlah tingkat 3 dan paling hujung ^&$%#$@&^&.

dalam makmal tu duduk sebaris dengan budak-budak 4 flat. i wonder kenapa tak dapat aura diorang??? selalu macam ni tau. Dulu time SPM pun duduk dikelilingi budak-budak straight A's boleh faham tak??? Depan R.Shakinah, dah tak payah cakap ahh budak ni kalau tak dapat A's semedang tu mcm benda yang mengejutkan lah. Tapi one great thing about her, she does inspire me and her success selama ni assure me yang i can also be like her. HIDUP BUDAK LOMPAT.

So masa SPM, Shakinah duduk depan aku. Sebelah aku si Xue Yin. Depan Xue Yin, Dayah. Depan Dayah, Timah. DAH SEMUA DAPAT STRAIGHT A'S MEMANG TAU SELALU SKIP BILA SAMPAI KAT AKU TSK TSK.

Astaghfirullah tak patut aku cakap ni, adoi, but but, despite my whining tadi, I am seriously thankful for the result that i've got :)

Okeh plan nak cakap pasal matriks tetiba boleh masuk pasal high school. =.='

so sekarang ni pukl 11 lebih. Kalau kat matriks sekarang ni tengah tutor Maths. Tutor Maths memang seronok. Dahlah duduk dengan geng Sharos semua tu, kalau tak ketawa sampai nak terkentut satu hari tu memang takda maknanya kalau duduk dengan diorang. Selalu kalau nak masuk Tutor Maths ni, Zaki selalu berebut tempat dengan John sampai berbunyi kerusi zeettt zettt yang membuatkan Sharos rasa ngilu.

='(

Lepas tu aku akan selalu terpisah dengan Mek, Fiq, Terk ngan Yani. (Baru aku perasan nama dorang semua satu suku kata je, except Yani.) Nanti aku dapat tengok dari jauh je Terk ngan Mek bergaduh. Yani selalu kena buli jugak. Tapi Yani pelajar berdedikasi, jadi masa belajar dia mesti diam dan pay attention. Fiq pula selalu duduk tepi tingkap, sebab senang nak skodeng Wafi budak 4 flat gehehehehehehehehehe. Sebab tiap-tiap Jumaat kelas Wafi budak 4 flat ni akan naik tingkat 3 kat tutor 2 lepas tu pasti lalu depan kelas kitorang. Tengok tengok sampai aku pun dah boleh hafal schedule kelas dorang.

Roti hotdog. Ye. Walaupun kau berminyak, kau tetap menjadi pujaan hati aku. Selalu kalau ada break between classes, lepak depan library, then bila aku bangun je nak pergi ko-op, dah semua jadi,

"Eh kau nak pergi ko-op eh? Belikan Metro/Kosmo weh."

"Qu, belikan aku roti Qu. Apa-apa roti pun boleh. Nah duit nih."

"Qu...hehehe" sambil tersengih. Dah tak payah ahh najib nak suruh aku beli roti hotdog suruh je la adoi. dan aku akan balas aku tak nak beli. Tapi bila balik daripada ko-op mesti bawak jugak 3 bungkus roti hotdog, (2 bungkus untuk aku, satu lagi untuk najib. terbalik kan? bukankah lelaki yang sepatutnya makan lagi banyak?)sebab aku kan menepati maksud "friends that stood by you through thick and thin come hell or high water"?

Ya Allah, serious rindu.

One thing that's hard for me to accept is moving on. Just like what happened in matriks. Just like what happened in ukm. Sampai sekarang asyik terbayang-bayang all the times i had in both places. ='(

Okeh dah tak nak type lagi pasal matriks. nanti lagi rindu. ='( dahlah tadi balas comment akma, dia skrg dekat ukm, dat's the reason why i wanted to post this. (get it, akma, wingmate masa matriks, belajar di ukm? get it?)


Tetapi sesungguhnya bilik kat matriks la bilik paling besar berbanding bilik-bilik di U dan kolej-kolej lain.

slowly getting up

Zura, thanks for everything. Thanks for that brilliant advice. Insya-Allah, kita sama-sama fulfill our responsibility kat sana nanti. Kalau kau tengok aku macam down ke, lalai ke, tak focus ke, please please please, pull me back onto the right track.

dan dan dan i love you bebeh. gehehehe.

and to hani madu, thanks for the offer babe :D you too, if you need anyone to listen to your probs, im all ears for yah :)

and sama-sama kita benci cicak. :)

thank you oasis.

Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now

Backbeat the word is on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
about you now

And all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
But I don't know how

Because maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

Today was gonna be the day
But they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now

And all the roads that lead you there were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
But I don't know how

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

I said maybe (I said maybe)
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

I said maybe (I said maybe)
You're gonna be the one that saves me (that saves me) 3X
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i ain't getting any better.

and i don't have this freaking wonderwall.

i don't know who's going to help me and save myself.

i guess i'm the only one left to do so.

i ain't getting any better.

yiruma, you rule.

and when qurratu is having one of those gloomy days, she went soft when she listened to river flows in you-yiruma.

it is actually bella's lullaby in twilight. and how pathetic and bored i was, i went to youtube and search for that song/vid clip wtf.

and of course mesti ada vid clip consisting of scenes of bella and edward from twilight.

and and and...like i have mentioned earlier, when qurratu is having one of her gloomy days, she went soft over those eeeww-romantic things such as that sweet song, and she even went soft over scenes where bella and edward together and all out of sudden she began to wonder how is it like to have someone that you really really love and care for like what happened between bella and edward...

dah qurratu diam kau mula merepek.

geez, i am really in a bad mood and having those forlorn moments and hitting the lowest points.

okeh maybe not exactly hitting the lowest points. maybe maybe maybe...

maybe i just need to shut up and continue writing my resume.

yerp. that's better. continue writing my resume.

p/s: the writer's having one of her "down" days. she'll heal. she will. with Allah's will. she'll heal.

life ain't a bed of roses, even it is still one, there will still be thorns and such.

we just have to deal with it. that's it.

although i pretty messed up right now, all i gotta do is just deal with it.

i'll keep that in mind the next time i messed up again.

KENAPA TAK PANDANG CAMERA ROBERT KENAPA KENAPA KENAPA????!!!



Mari tengok ramai-ramai di egypt nanti :)

so no title for my post today.

so i bored my ass off today.
so i think mr bean is freaking annoying.
so i think i'm excited to go out and get some fresh air today, after this.
so i think i'm anxious to watch transformers.

so i think my driving lessons and tips given by zati last night through YM are really helpful.
so i think i'm going to be safe after all from mad's penyepak and penyepuk.

so i think i have lost interest in reading now. (wtf)
so i think i need new shawls.

so i think i'm bored because most of my friends are currently in their respective universities going through their orientation week (dah nak habis pun, wth)
so i think i'm jealous at najib because he has already started studying.

so i think i miss studying.
so i think i miss books.
so i think i miss Dewan Kuliah 1 when i was back in matrix.
so i think i miss berborak with makcik yong tau foo kat matrix.
so i think i miss hanging out with my clique back in matrix.
so i think i miss tandakan attendance untuk my clique yang selalu kentut berdarah ahh, baju tak gosok ahh, bosan ahh, mengantuk ahh, sakit perut ahh, sakit kepala ahh, pengsan ahhh, time kat kuliah dulu.

so i think i miss babbling with my roomates, fifah and as.
so i think i miss singing and dancing with my twin, peeka and also with fad and yam.
so i think i miss the time where there is no air time kat matrix dulu. (hello? boleh faham tak air takde time tengah final exam. boleh tak???!!)
so i think i miss my life in matrix.

so i think i'm anticipated for egypt.
so i think i miss lepaking until 3 or 4 o'clock in the morning when i was back in ukm.
so i think i miss practicing my zapin.
so i think i miss beaming with wide smiles when i was bumping into people that i knew when i was back in ukm.
so i think i miss lepaking while watching tv at blok a.
so i think i miss lepaking with my tutormates in surau.
so i think i miss the time i had in ukm.

so i think i sound annoying in this post.

i'm in the nostalgic mode. sue me.

The Scientist

All out of sudden I think Coldplay sounds good.

Satu benda yang WOWWWW daripada Qurratu sebab before this tak pernah interested in Coldplay.

Okey dah bye tak tau nak blog pasal apa. :D