I was;

Shuddered as the thought of death comes across my mind.

Shuddered, and that feeling where you're afraid of losing the ones that you love, forever from your sight, hits me like a sudden pang and has managed to make some tears flowing.

Ya Allah, I beg for your mercy, one of the things that I want to do the most right now is to see my family. Give me the chance to see all of them next year =(

Of all the boundaries;

I thought the hole in my heart is getting deeper as days passing by, the urge to go back to Malaysia is something that I have felt everyday. But I guess by keeping myself occupied with the thoughts about my exams DO help me to not let that hole to get deeper and deeper and deeper.

So jyeahh, I'm done with Anatomy and Histology. I was really, reeaaalllyyy keeping my fingers crossed hoping that both of them will be such darlings and being fair to me. Well, they were being fair enough to me. Found out that I have a few mistakes here and there, but yeahh the blame is on me though, being careless and doubtful are something that I have kept doing everytime I sit for any exams. Urgh.

But yeahh, those two darlings are over. Next up, BIOCHEMISTRY. Haihh. I haven't finished reading on Lipid, and I really do hope that I will be able to finish reading it before THIS SATURDAY. Dahlah Biochem doeeee.

Through it all;

"Through the fire, to the limit to the wall,
For a chance to be with you, I'd gladly risk it all,
Through the fire, through whatever come what may
For a chance at loving you, I'd take it all away
Right down through the wire, even through the fire."

And I feel that the verse of the song up here is exactly what I would sing to my AyahIbuArsyadLuqmanAimranDanialNenekFatimahMunirahSyafikaSyida and everyoneeee that have never failed to pray for my well being and my success here. I promise that I will try every effort that I have to go back to you guys with something that could make all of you smile. =')

Gonna fight through whatever, come hell or high water, be it piles of blood, sweats and tears, even if it means I would have to stumble or fall flat on my face or whatever through this adventurous journey of achieving what I have always dreamt of; SUCCESS, Insha-Allah!

P/S : My brother's going to sit for his BM paper in another..half an hour. Only God knows how worried I am, and only God knows that I am fighting together with my adik, since I will be having my mid-term examination soon. We are always here for you, adik and my prayer will always be with you.

O' Allah, I beg for your mercy to ease our path. Amen ya Rabb.

Really;

You can't actually call this a post, BUT, I have a request to make, which is;

IBU BOLEH TAK AKAK BELA KUCING?

To die beside you is a heavenly way to die;

Nak bagitahu yang dalam satu minggu ni, I have spent 60LE which equals to around RM30 on 6 SHAWLS.

And nak bagitahu jugak yang I have been eating spaghetti non stop since this afternoon.

And it's 3 freaking am now.

And nak bagitahu jugak yang I haven't touched and opened any books for today.

And nak bagitahu jugak yang I'm looking forward to June.

And nak bagitahu jugak yang it's funny to watch young Ashton Kutcher in That 70's Show.

HAHAHAHAHAHAH ANOTHER POINTLESS POST T_____________T

From Miss Syida

Something to kill my time. (Eyyyy masa kau tak cukup cukup dibunuh ke hahahaha translation is funny)


my personality:

• i’m loud.
•i’m obnoxious.
•i’m sarcastic.
•i’m cocky.
•i cry easily.
•i have a bad temper.
•for the most part i don’t like people.
•i’m easy to get along with. 
•i have more enemies than friends.
•i’ve smoked.
•i’ve smoked weed.
•i drink coffee.



my appearance:

• i wear makeup.
•i wear a piece of jewelry at all times.
•i wear contacts.
•i wear glasses. (only when I am studying)
•i have braces.
•i change my hair colour often
•i straighten my hair often
•i have a piercing 
•i have small feet


relationships:

•i’m in a relationship now. 
•i’m single.
•i’m crushin’.
•i’m in love.
•i’m always scared of being hurt. 
•an ex has physically abused me at least once. 
•i’ve told someone i loved them when i didn’t.
•i’ve told someone i didn’t love them when i did.
•i’ve been in love more than two times.
•i believe in love at first sight.
•i believe lust is more important than love.

friendships:

• i have a best friend.
•i have at least ten friends.
•i’ve gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend. 
•i’ve beaten up a friend.
•i’ve been in a serious fight with a friend.
•i can trust at least five people with my life. 

experiences:

•i’ve been on a plane. 
•i’ve been on a train. 
•someone close to me has died.
•i’ve taken a taxi.
•i’ve taken a city bus.
•i’ve taken a school bus.
•i’ve gone bungee jumping.
•i’ve made a speech.
•i’ve been in some sort of club. 
•i’ve won an award.
•i’ve spent 24 hours on the computer straight. 
•i’ve been in a physical fight 

music:

• i listen to rnb 
•i listen to country. 
•i listen to pop.
•i listen to techno. 
•i listen to rock. 
•i’m one of those people who play songs repeatedly until i hate it. 
•i hate the radio.
•i download music. 
•i buy cd’s.

television:

•i spend at least six hours a day watching television. 
•i watch soap operas daily.
•i’m in love with days of our lives.
•i’ve seen and liked the o.c.
•i’ve seen and liked one tree hill. 
•i’ve seen and like americas next top model. 
•i’ve seen and like popular.
•i’ve seen and like 24.
•i’ve seen and liked csi. 
•i’ve seen and like everwood.

family life:

•i get along with both of my parents.
•my biological parents are still together.
•i have at least one brother. 
•i have at least one sister. 
•i have at least one step brother/sister.
•i have at least one half brother/sister.
•i’ve been kicked out of the house.
•i’ve ran away from my home.
•i’ve sworn at my parents.
•i’ve made my parents cry.
•i’ve lied to my parents.
•i’ve lied to my parents about where i am.
•i’ve lied to my parents about what i’m doing.
•i’ve lied to my parents so i’d be allowed out.
•i’ve walked out when i’ve been grounded.

*Kalau ibu dengan ayah baca, diorang marah tak? TEEHEEHEE



school:

•i’ve yelled at a teacher.
•i’ve been suspended.
•i’ve had an in-school suspension.
•i’ve been sent to the principals office.
•i’ve walked out of class. 
•i’ve skipped an entire day of school. 
•i’ve skipped a whole month of one certain class.
•i’ve failed a test. 
•i’ve cheated on a test.
•i’ve helped someone else cheat on a test.
•i’ve failed art.
•i’ve failed p.e.
•i’ve failed math.
•i’ve failed science.
•i’ve failed another class.
•a teacher has called my parents



*Conclusion to everything : I sound like a budak jahat T________T

Hari ini;

Saya ingin mengisytiharkan yang homesick saya semakin teruk.

Dan oh ya, Anatomy mid term adalah dalam dua minggu lagi tapi relax macam nak pergi picnic kat Cabo San Lucas.

A part of everything else;

'Cause you are the sun in my universe,
considered the best when we've felt the worst
and most of all it's built to last.


Sweet dan ergh, excruciating.

I'm all cranked up

as I'm watching videos by Audrey and Gamaliel.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SNKiKmjeI2o <--- click here click here!

Sue me, bite me, but watching this video of this super duper talented siblings everyday is like a must for me.

Anddddd, I'm having my Physiology quiz tomorrow. =)))))))) This is actually the sarcastic smile, since Physiology happens to be the subject that I fear the most, so I'm really, reaaallyyy hoping that Physiology is going to be fair to me tomorrow, Physio, don't forget to spread the loveeeeeeaaahhh for me, aaaaa.

And plus plus plus, my mid-term examination is just around the corner and I can feel like it's taking a peep at me =.=', it's just waiting for the right time to drop by and say hello and scares me to death. Hailaaa. You know what people, one thing I have learned again and again and again since I was back in high school is SAY NO TO PROCRASTINATION,

okay, mari kita ulang lagi,

SAY NO TO PROCRASTINATION 

sekali lagi adik adik sekalian,

SAY NO TO PROCRASTINATION

Because procrastination could be a good friend of yours when you're feeling all lazy but it's gonna eat you up later on and it's gonna cause you headache, you're gonna worry yourself to sleep thinking how the hell are you going to catch up on your studiessss

Gaahhh I may sound like exaggerating but truth to be told, that is exactly how I feel right nowww.

Hmmm you know what lets just focus on mid-term exam and heyyy I can stuff myself with The OC and Laguna Beach and That 70's Show after the exam has ended HAHAHAHA ASHTON KUTCHER ADAM BRODY TUNGGU AKU HAHAHA okay niat tak betul dahh

Dah dah. Sirious sirious. *Mengerutkan dahi* Sirious mode is on people. 

P/S : Do pray for our success, ey? :B Syukran jazilan ya antum. :)

Now and then

Now only I have realized that the something that I have seem to be regretting of is not really...how should I put this in a sentence eyy, let's just say, indah khabar dari rupa?

It's like, you have always thought that just thinking about the fact that you have lost something kills you, sampai rasa macam tak nak fikir langsung dah pasal tu, but then when you have finally embraced yourself to face the reality, something clicked in your head. "Hey, it wasn't so bad actually, I mean, I'm okay now. Kan? I'm not breaking down like pieces of broken china doll that can't be put back into one complete, whole china doll balik, kan?"

Dan maybe, maaaybbeee, you think you're in denial, you think that you're just giving yourself that self-motivation that you're perfectly fiineee, but really, the truth is, you ARE really fine?

Ookkaayyy, washing machine dah buat bunyi pelik. Oookaaayyyy, Physiology is on this Sunday tapi aku tak sedar sedar diri yang aku tak sampai 25% pun habis baca. Oookaaayy, kau memang menempah maut Qurratu. Oookkaayyyy dah bye.

P/s: Tolonglah faham yang lately ni homesick makin meningkat. Meningkatnya macam my appetite yang entah tiba tiba jadi macam selera gajah. Tsk. Dahlah bye.